April 11th, 2007
MEMORIES POSTED AT 11:13 AM I found this one while disposing old papers and other documents. Wala lang, matagal na rin pala akong di nagsusulat. Paglimot Naging maramot ang gabi!
Tinangay ng hangin ang mga kataga At inanod ng ulan ang mga salita Na dapat sana'y iaalay sa iyo. Ang siya ring hangin at ulang Nagtulak sa paglikha ng mga alaalang Nagsilbing pamayapa ay siya ngayong Kamay sa paglikha ng dilim at paglimot.
Datapwat mapagbigay ang kandila. Dali - dali niyang inalay ang sariling luha Upang maging tinta ng plumang Lilikha ng mga bagong alaala.
************ Listening to: High School Musical Feeling: nostalgic 2 looked at death with awe
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January 18th, 2007
THE LAST THING A GUY WOULD WANT TO HEAR POSTED AT 12:26 PM I'm sure that a lot of my female friends would disagree with this but I honestly believe that when it comes to the realm of relationships, the last thing a guy would like to hear is the phrase, "LET"S JUST BE FRIENDS!" Do I need to elaborate? I'm sure any guy would agree with me. I mean let's face it. When you're courting a woman and that person answers you with that line...it's over. I don't care what others might think burt seriously, this is a dead end. This line is a gentler way of saying, "you know what, I like spending time with you...you're such a nice fellow but you're not boyfriend material." Regardless of how they hide it...it's the same thing no matter what. Come on, if your not ready for a serious and committed relationship then just say it. You don't say, "let's just be friends" for that phrase is a death sentence. By saying that, you are putting the guy (the one doing the courting) in a box. It's different when you start as friend and mutually develop into something more...that is really a different story. But when the guy has opened himself already and admitted his feelings, it changes the scenario completely. It's not that the guy is expecting something in return, it's just that the phrase removes any if not all the opportunities for the relationship to evolve. It sucks! The worst part of it is that when we stop courting because of this, they say that we are too much in a hurry. We are not willing to wait. Yah right! You don't wait for something that will never happen. Listening to: my heart breathing fire Feeling: like hurting someone |
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December 5th, 2006
CRAP! POSTED AT 06:05 PM Kaasar! Tagal ko rin pa lang di nagsulat dito. Marunong pa ba ako? Teka, pano nga ito? Ah basta! Sulat na lang ng sulat! ***** Nakakaasar! Akala ko ok na. Akala ko immune na ako sa kalokohan ng emotion. Akala ko kaya ko ng pumorma sa isang babae na hindi ako magiging emotional... na hindi ako ang unang mahuhulog. Bwisit! Maling akala ang lahat. Ngayon, ako ang sobrang nahuhulog sa kanya. I can't control myself. I know that this stupid emotion is ruining my style pero wala akong magawa. Bwisit! Sirang - sira ang diskarte ko. I feel this void within me. I feel that I will never be truly happy again if we don't end up together. I hate this. Someone shoot me now! ***** Sinong mayroong savannah lions? Listening to: Esem by Yano Feeling: like too emo...pweh! |
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May 22nd, 2006
CHANGES POSTED AT 08:56 AM Siguro nga totoo talaga na walang permanente dito sa mundo kundi ang pagbabago. Lahat ng tao at lahat ng bagay na ginawa ng Poong Maykapal ay magbabago. Parang buhay ko ngayon, ang daming pagbabago. In one of my previous entries, I wrote that the Council of Mages was reduced to three, Valens, Onats and Me. Well, let just say that the when one mage disappears, a couple would show up. We have new members in the Council: Konrad, PA (ewan ko kung ganito ang spelling ng nick nya), Adriane (Kuya ni PA) and the Mages in training (mga pamangkin ni Onats). Hahaha. Basta kulit lang pag chaos. Oh by the way, andyan din pala ang mga Bathaluma ng Quezon City. Sa ating lahat, just continue believing in the power of our decks! My sister just got married. Ang saya, ang lupet, parang comedy. Patawa yung mag-asawa. Nakakatawa silang pagmasdan. Hay naku, ako na lang pala ang single sa pamilya. Oh well! Dati, when I like a girl, sobrang pa-impress ako. I'll make sure na mapapansin ako nung babaeng gustu ko. As in kulit to the max. Ngayon, parang wala na akong tyaga. I mean, kung ayaw mo sa akin then I'll be on my way, I'll live my life and hope the we'll both be happy. If your interested just let me know and who knows it might go somewhere if not then sorry. Enough of this! Reading: the signs fo the times Listening to: sound steadily diminishing Watching: my love walk on by Feeling: like doing a 1-turn-kill |
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April 29th, 2006
EMOTIONAL IN BOHOL POSTED AT 08:52 PM Emotional...that is the last word you would associate with my name. I've written tons of about it so I will not focus on it. Even if I consider myself as very cerebral, I guess there are times that I become emotional. Crap! I'm in Bohol right now, attending a workshop for peace and global citizenship. I'm not going to talk about the workshop because I have to say that it is not like what I expected it to be. My focus will be the place, Bohol itself. Seeing the different towns, tourist spots (whether natural or man-made) and the people... you can't help but fall in love. We ate lunch at this river cruise, grabe and ganda ng lugar! Ang linis ng tubig, and sarap ng pagkain at ganda...basta maganda! Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, dito ko gustong mag-"honeymoon." Grabe, bigla ko lang narealize na I'm so lonely. There is this beautiful experience and I am not able to share it with someone coz' I have no one. Hayyy. So I texted this girl I'm interested in pero wala eh. Iba pa rin kung kasama ko sya and the feeling is mutual. Basta, I'll make it a point na the next time that I'll visit Bohol, I'll be with my wife! Hehehe! Crap! Magpaka-emo daw ba! ***** Listening to: Especially For You Feeling: silly |
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March 27th, 2006
AND THEN THERE WERE THREE POSTED AT 10:56 AM I guess it was bound to happen. I mean it happened to the Beatles and it happened to the E-heads. I guess our group is no different...the legendary Council of Mages. Four spellcasters, each trying to become the best he can be. Each trying to become adept to every color of magic. We had a good run. We usually have our weekly gathering at this coffee place. Here we have the opportunity to display our new skills. It was something that you look forward to everyweek. But I guess not even the magical abilities of the council can stop what destiny has predetermined. One of us experienced the purest and most powerful form of magic...love. Yes, one of us fell in love. End of story. ***** To you fellow spellcaster, you are indeed lucky. You are still invited but we'll understand if you cannnot make it to our weekly gathering. ***** Pag wala ka nang hilig sa MTG, akin na lang cards mo. Hehehehe! Listening to: With a Smile Watching: others do their thing Feeling: like doing my work...not! |
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March 22nd, 2006
SOMETHING SOMEONE SHOULD NOT FEEL POSTED AT 09:02 AM I think no one should feel that they are unloved and unappreciated. It is so unfair. Feeling like you have no worth in this world, like you are just another face to be ignored. I'm currently feeling that way. It is illogical I know since I'm pretty sure that God loves me. Come to think of it, I think that the knowledge that God loves me is the only thing that is sustaining my pathetic life. Seriously though, a person just needs to feel that he/she is appreciated and loved by others. I'm not just feeling that! ***** "It has been a couple of times now, always having an excuse. If you are not interested, just tell me. I think we are too old to be playing games." ***** Crap! Crap! Crap! It's only nine in the morning and I'm feeling like crap! The logical mind is telling me to choose my attitude...heck sometimes you just can't choose! Listening to: the news Watching: my life fade away Feeling: infuriated |
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March 14th, 2006
ANOTHER ONE POSTED AT 09:02 AM Another year, another batch... I'm getting really old. I should be used to this by now but I guess you can never get used to letting go of people. I have to admit, some people can grow on you. Argh! To the graduating class, goodluck! ***** There a lot of things that are actually good in my life right now and yeet I feel incomplete. How I wish you can have time for me already...not that I'm demanding or anything. ***** I need to say something smart, wise and witty...
Reading: something Listening to: something Watching: something Feeling: like seeing something |
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January 23rd, 2006
DISILLUSSIONED POSTED AT 06:09 PM We all have been jaded by love. We look or wait for it, we take care of it, we are inspired by it and then we get hurt by it. Ah, love... see. a lot of people talk or write about love as if it is something that a one person can truly grasp. How I wish it is so but we all know that love has it many facades. I'm not into writing lately but here it goes. More often than not, it is not love that we seek but a relationship. The connection between individuals destined to be alone. It is through having a relationship that we can benefit from the illusion that we are not alone in this world. Funny! Wake up world! Having a relationship does not equate to experiencing love. Loving does not remove you from the state of loneliness, it actually makes you more alone. For in experiencing love in its entirety, we see the foolishness of people and as much as we try to reach out, we are pushed away. This is because they prefer the bliss of the illussion they are experiencing rather than the bitterness of truth. Listening to: the void Watching: light fading into nothing Feeling: like fading away |
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