ShadowMaster

I found this one while disposing old papers and other documents. Wala lang, matagal na rin pala akong di nagsusulat.

Paglimot

Naging maramot ang gabi!

Tinangay ng hangin ang mga kataga

At inanod ng ulan ang mga salita

Na dapat sana'y iaalay sa iyo.

Ang siya ring hangin at ulang

Nagtulak sa paglikha ng mga alaalang

Nagsilbing pamayapa ay siya ngayong

Kamay sa paglikha ng dilim at paglimot.

Datapwat mapagbigay ang kandila.

Dali - dali niyang inalay ang sariling luha

Upang maging tinta ng plumang

Lilikha ng mga bagong alaala.

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ShadowMaster

I'm sure that a lot of my female friends would disagree with this but I honestly believe that when it comes to the realm of relationships, the last thing a guy would like to hear is the phrase, "LET"S JUST BE FRIENDS!"

Do I need to elaborate? I'm sure any guy would agree with me. I mean let's face it. When you're courting a woman and that person answers you with that line...it's over. I don't care what others might think burt seriously, this is a dead end. This line is a gentler way of saying, "you know what, I like spending time with you...you're such a nice fellow but you're not boyfriend material." Regardless of how they hide it...it's the same thing no matter what.

Come on, if your not ready for a serious and committed relationship then just say it.  You don't say, "let's just be friends" for that phrase is a death sentence. By saying that, you are putting the guy (the one doing the courting) in a box. It's different when you start as friend and mutually develop into something more...that is really a different story. But when the guy has opened himself already and admitted his feelings, it changes the scenario completely. It's not that the guy is expecting something in return, it's just that the phrase removes any if not all the opportunities for the relationship to evolve.

It sucks! The worst part of it is that when we stop courting because of this, they say that we are too much in a hurry. We are not willing to wait. Yah right! You don't wait for something that will never happen. 

ShadowMaster

Kaasar! Tagal ko rin pa lang di nagsulat dito. Marunong pa ba ako? Teka, pano nga ito? Ah basta! Sulat na lang ng sulat!

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Nakakaasar! Akala ko ok na. Akala ko immune na ako sa kalokohan ng emotion.  Akala ko kaya ko ng pumorma sa isang babae na hindi ako magiging emotional... na hindi ako ang unang mahuhulog. Bwisit! Maling akala ang lahat. Ngayon, ako ang sobrang nahuhulog sa kanya. I can't control myself. I know that this stupid emotion is ruining my style pero wala akong magawa. Bwisit! Sirang - sira ang diskarte ko. I feel this void within me. I feel that I will never be truly happy again if we don't end up together. I hate this. Someone shoot me now!

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Sinong mayroong savannah lions?

ShadowMaster

Siguro nga totoo talaga na walang permanente dito sa mundo kundi ang pagbabago.  Lahat ng tao at lahat ng bagay na ginawa ng Poong Maykapal ay magbabago.  Parang buhay ko ngayon, ang daming pagbabago.

In one of my previous entries, I wrote that the Council of Mages was reduced to three, Valens, Onats and Me.  Well, let just say that the when one mage disappears, a couple would show up.  We have new members in the Council: Konrad, PA (ewan ko kung ganito ang spelling ng nick nya), Adriane (Kuya ni PA) and the Mages in training (mga pamangkin ni Onats).  Hahaha.  Basta kulit lang pag chaos.  Oh by the way, andyan din pala ang mga Bathaluma ng Quezon City.  Sa ating lahat, just continue believing in the power of our decks!

My sister just got married.  Ang saya, ang lupet, parang comedy. Patawa yung mag-asawa. Nakakatawa silang pagmasdan.  Hay naku, ako na lang pala ang single sa pamilya. Oh well!

Dati, when I like a girl, sobrang pa-impress ako.  I'll make sure na mapapansin ako nung babaeng gustu ko. As in kulit to the max.  Ngayon, parang wala na akong tyaga. I mean, kung ayaw mo sa akin then I'll be on my way, I'll live my life and hope the we'll both be happy.  If your interested just let me know and who knows it might go somewhere if not then sorry.

Enough of this! 

ShadowMaster

I guess it was bound to happen.  I mean it happened to the Beatles and it happened to the E-heads.  I guess our group is no different...the legendary Council of Mages.  Four spellcasters, each trying to become the best he can be.  Each trying to become adept to every color of magic.  We had a good run. We usually have our weekly gathering at this coffee place.  Here we have the opportunity to display our new skills.  It was something that you look forward to everyweek.  But I guess not even the magical abilities of the council can stop what destiny has predetermined.  One of us experienced the purest and most powerful form of magic...love.  Yes, one of us fell in love.  End of story.

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To you fellow spellcaster, you are indeed lucky.  You are still invited but we'll understand if you cannnot make it to our weekly gathering. 

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Pag wala ka nang hilig sa MTG, akin na lang cards mo. Hehehehe! 

ShadowMaster

I think no one should feel that they are unloved and unappreciated.  It is so unfair.  Feeling like you have no worth in this world, like you are just another face to be ignored.  I'm currently feeling that way.  It is illogical I know since I'm pretty sure that God loves me.  Come to think of it, I think that the knowledge that God loves me is the only thing that is sustaining my pathetic life.  Seriously though, a person just needs to feel that he/she is appreciated and loved by others. I'm not just feeling that!

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"It has been a couple of times now, always having an excuse.  If you are not interested, just tell me. I think we are too old to be playing games."

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Crap! Crap! Crap! It's only nine in the morning and I'm feeling like crap!  The logical mind is telling me to choose my attitude...heck sometimes you just can't choose!

ShadowMaster

Another year, another batch... I'm getting really old.  I should be used to this by now but I guess you can never get used to letting go of people.  I have to admit, some people can grow on you.  Argh! To the graduating class, goodluck!

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There a lot of things that are actually good in my life right now and yeet I feel incomplete.  How I wish you can have time for me already...not that I'm demanding or anything.

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I need to say something smart, wise and witty...